Navigating Spiritual Abilities and Trauma: A Former Chapter in My Personal Journey

Exploring the Origins of Intuitive Coping, Dissociation, and Restoration Preface (2025 Update):

This article was written during a formative chapter in my journey: when I was beginning to question the origins of my intuitive and energetic sensitivities. While I no longer work in explicitly spiritual or channeling-based modalities, this exploration was a crucial step in the eventual development of the Psychosomatic Restoration Method™.

What follows is not representative of my current client work, but rather part of the background that shaped how I now understand trauma, fragmentation, and integration. I offer it as a reflective piece for those navigating the blurry edge between mystical gifts and nervous system dysregulation.

When Intuition Emerges from Adaptation

In the realm of spirituality and self-discovery, intuitive abilities are often seen as sacred gifts—empathy, clairvoyance, channeling, or energy sensitivity—as if they arrive untethered to personal history. But both in my own trajectory and in the patterns witnessed across my client work, I’ve come to understand that these so-called gifts can also emerge as divine coping mechanisms—creative adaptations to a lack of secure attachment, emotional safety, or early relational attunement.

This article explores the link between extrasensory development and trauma, particularly how intuitive capacities may arise in response to childhood adversity and dissociation.

How Trauma Shaped My Intuition

In my own history, I grew up in a household shaped by narcissistic patterns and emotional volatility. I developed hypervigilance early on, which became the foundation for what would later be framed as intuitive ability.

What I now understand as a nervous system adaptation was, at the time, seen as spiritual sensitivity. I could read a room without speaking. I could feel the emotional states of others before they were expressed. But rather than being intuitive in the mystical sense, this was more accurately a form of survival-based perception.

The ‘Good Girl’ and the Empty Vessel

My ability to track others was closely tied to a need to be liked, accepted, and safe. I became a mirror—often empty inside—reflecting others back to themselves. This made me a vessel for collective energy, and eventually a public channel for insights I believed were universal.

I later discovered I was unconsciously projecting unprocessed emotions outward and naming them as collective truths. This wasn’t manipulation; it was a genuine blind spot created by trauma. It allowed me to access what I couldn’t yet name as mine.

Coming Back to Myself

Through long-term trauma therapy, body-based coaching, and deep introspective work, I slowly reclaimed the parts of me I had outsourced to the spiritual realm. As I became more embodied, more relational, and more internally coherent, the compulsion to channel disappeared. My sensitivity remained—but it was no longer used to bypass my pain. It was integrated into my leadership, no longer split from my sense of self.

I now speak, write, and teach from my own system—not as a vessel, but as a woman who has done the work to earn her voice.

Why This Still Matters

I share this piece not to discredit intuitive or spiritual capacities, but to place them in trauma-informed context. I’ve worked with many clients whose gifts were born from pain, and who need help discerning the difference between their inner wisdom and their survival strategies.

This doesn’t make their gifts less valid—but it does mean the path to integration often requires trauma work, nervous system support, and a reframing of what spiritual evolution actually asks of us.

If You Relate to This

If you’ve found yourself resonating with the themes in this article—performing strength while feeling fragmented, identifying as gifted but uncertain where your voice ends and others begin—my work may be a good fit.

The Psychosomatic Restoration Method™ offers an integrative approach to healing for high-functioning, spiritually attuned individuals who are ready to move from fragmentation into inner coherence.

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